One of her friends started to take an interest in me and for some reason since our sex life had slowed down I became curious. I fought it like crazy because I refused to cheat. I'd been cheated on way too many times to do that to her. We were always open with eachother about our feelings so I told her how I felt about her friend. We both cried and argued and decided to take a break. But it wasn't really a break. I couldn't do anything I wanted. Didn't want to be single because I loved her. And she still called every single day. We still had sex, everything was as if we never seperated. So we got back together. Things were okay for a few months but then her friend came BACK into the picture. This time I refused to tell my girl about it because I felt it was nothing. But one day after a party, my girlfriend drove home with another friend and i drove the girl home. As we were saying goodbye, she kissed me. I soon pulled her off and told I couldn't. I loved my girlfriend but I still felt like I'd cheated. I went back to my girlfriend's house ashamed at myself. She deserved better than me. I'd cheated on her. I couldn't even sleep beside her that night, so i woke her up to talk. I told her she was too good of a girl to be with someone like me. Things were too comfortable and I wasn't sure if I was even able to settle down yet. I wanted to but after what I believed was cheating on her I didn't think I could settle down.
I didn't tell her I cheated. Just told her I wasn't sure what I wanted. As we both sat there sobbing, she told me ';once you figure out what you want, I'll be here. Just don't forget that. I'll wait for you.';
I left early that morning and drove to her friend's house. told her the news. she was shocked and said i shouldn't have. After afew days I was sleeping with her. But soon realized I still loved my ex. It killed her to hear this but she understood. I showed up at my ex's house that night with a cake for her birthday. I had a mini birthday party for her and at exactly midnight had her blow out her candles. But the whole time, she was on the phone with another girl she liked. It broke my heart hearing her flirt over the phone but I knew I deserved it after breaking her heart. A few days later, I came clean to my ex. told her everything that happened. Explained that I knew I'd messed up and I was ready now. But I knew she wasn't. She told me ';well we hardly ever had sex. So I wanna see if me and things with this other girl work out'; I was crying and told her I understood but if we ever got back together that we would have sex. even though sex shouldn't have been the issue. I was desperate for her back.
She's still with that girl. And she's told my ex not to talk to me, not to hang out with me, not to even think of me. She steals my ex's phone and insults me. Threatens me. And the sad part is she lets her. Once she even tried to kick me out of my ex's house (i'm still very close with my ex's family and help out with bills when they have money problems) and my ex stood in between us and tried to get me to leave. I refused. My ex has pushed away all of her friends, ignores my texts. cancels all her plans with her friends. she's always with her girlfriend. when they break up, I'm there for her. When they get back together I'm ignored. I know I deserved some of this but do you think I should still be paying for what I did to her?
Who do you think is the bad guy? me or her?Who's the bad guy? (this is long)?
the mistake was from both of you, you started it, she moved on with someone else,and now you are both paying it, but i think if after that she does all of that, she still loves youWho's the bad guy? (this is long)?
I think it's important that you try and take full responsibility over what has happened. I cheated on my ex girlfriend, but it wasn't cause I wanted to. Like you, the girl came onto me, at a club. There were drinks involved, and she kissed like 5 other guys that night. I told my ex the next day, but to her, this could never be forgotten so she broke up with me.
The reason I think it's important to accept that you made the mistake is so that you can become a better person, because let's face it, we can all improve on ourselves in some way. I've convinced myself that it's all my fault, even if there are factors to why the relationship between me and my ex may have failed (for instance, I was suicidal, and I told her, and she walked away from me... so much for that ';for better or for worse, in sickness and in health'; crap that is exchanged during vows, since I wanted to make this girl my wife).
Your ex is probably having a hard time acting rationally as well. Everyone likes to think they're right. Even I do too. I know I can't change my ex's mind, so to me, it's best I leave that to the past and move on. Learn from my mistakes. Although I kind of feel tainted cause of that kiss, people have created this lame saying that goes ';once a cheater, always a cheater'; and even though I don't believe it to be true whatsoever, people are so convinced of it.
jumping jehosophat, u r d wrong one here, and r u guys gay?
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